Im back

woh.....it`s been an ages i din update my lovely blog =P
i felt so sorry to my blog blog T_T
so...
where had i been for these whole month?
im busy party all night long...
lolx.....
PARTY people.....
im back to my party life.... =D
i miss my party ppl...sharon len....shorty chia...where are u ppl......
i found 2 damn nice party place le wei~~~
=P

hmm.......i had a super confusing june....
hmm.....but is ok..... i think i knw wat to do....
wat i need is time.... =)
there`s no doubt tat he`s the best the most caring man for me....
I miss him....

I Miss Him

Mr. Wong....
I Miss You so much today...
When can we c each other again?
=(

Day b4 Leaving...

I woke up early in the morning today and had breakfast wit my fam....
After my breakfast....i rushed back to my home and started wit my busy preparation...
Let c wat`s im going to do today...
1. pudding
2. sandwich
3. fruits

I took nearly 45 mins to done my pudding and sandwich....
and i get myself ready in just 30mins....
without eye make up =.=
Overall.....
My dear loves my sandwich most......
It`s nth to do wit my cooking skill....lolx....sandwich is the safest food ever...hahahaha.....
but the pudding.....
ok
dun mention bout it.....
hahahahahaha........
I`m willing to do cooking for my dear IF my cooking skill is gd enuf.....
UNFORTUNATELY.....im not......
forgv me T_T

Spent 4 hours with my dear today....
The last day for us to meet up....
It`ll be a long time to go til the day we able to c each other again....
Cuz im going back to hell again....
aihh......
I miss him madly.....madly....
Few drops of tears dropped down while i drove back home...
just FEW drops.... i swear.....

I`d been so quiet at home today....
Not feel like want to talk.....
but...
YOU`re the only exception....

We going to be far apart.....
Again....

Happy 4 Months Anniversary

I`ve done wit my HAPPY 4 MONTHS ANNIVERSARRY card for my man...
Is been a little bit early den the exact date....
No choice....
I will be in malacca on the exact day.....so i decided to give it to my man b4 i going back to malacca....
Honestly,
im not very satisfy on wat i did for him.....
Looks weird for the whole card designt =.= but i do like the bottom`s heart which fold by myself =)

Hope my man wil love it ^^Folded Heart

Shopping dAy

Once i open my eyes.....i can feel tat today`s gonna be a super duper BORED day...
So i phone my lovely cousin sis and ask for a outing....
If not im going to die in my house T_T
Actually we plan for movie.....but we missed it up at last....
Cuz we feel tat it`s better to have girls talk in starbucks...
Hot green tea latte is always the best choice in rainy day....
GOSH...
Im broke today T_T
After i shop HARDLY today.....wakaka.....
Who`s going to sponsor me some pocket money ToT

I Like TIS~ Lolx

Liquor night...

It`s SUNDAY~~~~
im in super hyper mood now T_T
gosh....
im juz back frm soho wit my 3 ge...
we had few glass of liquor there....hahahah....
he was shock cuz my bro never c his sis so crazy b4....hahahaha
once i enter soho...i laugh til we leave....
hahahahahaha......
niceDJ wit awesome remix....
gosh...
i keep move my body there...
and my bro do the same things too....
hahahahaha....
nice liquor night wit my bro......
LIQUORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Unfamiliar L.O.V.E

Finally i met my man up today....
We hang out for a movie.....
Is a weird feeling when i 1st get in his car....
Tis is the 1st time he fetch me up since he changed his new car.....
Unfamiliar feeling surrounding me....
As i said....
He had his hair cut today......
New car....New hair cut.....
Izit where the unfamiliar feeling comes from?
I guess so....

My man knw im moody....tats y he came for me....
Thx dear....
Much more better after we met up today......
Im looking forward to the next day we meet up....
Hopefully..... i may able to c u tml?
I really hope for it.... but i din request it....
guess u wil hang out tml right?
It`s friday tml.....
should be a happening day for u....
Saturday wil meet up again i guess......

Gd nite...

Confusing

Im in a lazy mood today.....
but im juz lazy in moving around....not mention bout the working of my brain.....
I think a lots today...
and suddenly... im afraid to be in relationship, to love some1....
feel like trying to escape frm everything....
the mood is just like, im not going to care anymore bout ur life.....
hang out wit frens?
yeah...just go on...... there`s nth much i can do.....
cuz i feel tat i had done my best in our relationship.....

Sometimes....im really complicated and hard to been understand by some1 else...
i not even knw wat i wan actually.......
Im confusing....and i lost myself again......
can i find myself back?
The real me.....

I knw he`ll hang out wit his frens tonite...
juz a sense....
though we promised to meet up by today....but i offered him to hang out tonite wit his frens...
i`ll doing great if im home today.....yeah....im in the mood to stay away frm everything.....
actually, i had done wit all my make up, my hair, and orange juice for him....
just a sudden mood..... i would say so......
but my man said is going to fetch me up after his hair cut.....
hmmm......
Mayb i`ll feel better if i meet him up?
.....
Hopefully.....

Movie day + Timbaland ft Katy Perry - If We Ever Meet Again

Special thx to my lovely cousin....
She bring me out for movie tis evening.....
as she knw im super duper bored when im home....so do as she...
overall.....we did have a nice movie day today...
Shrek is strongly recommended...
we laugh loudly when the fat cat said " Feed me...If u dare.."
Lolx......
Thx honey bi...for acc me today....
You make me feel much more better =)

Timbaland ft. Katy Perry-If We Ever Meet Again

I`m totally crazy for Timbaland again when i watched tis video
He`s damn cute
and i never knw he can be so cute b4 tis

I Believe in You & Me

Having my lovely day wit my lovely cousin sis today.....
We went to temple to pray.....
cuz it`s been very bad luck for her these few months....
get rob on her birthday night and car broke down few days ago....
and she was stil damn upset when after we prayed...
cuz 签 showed she`s having bad bad luck.....
so...
she plan to visit joyce tarot.....
the more upset she turned into cuz the tarot show the same things on her too.....
wil b another rob case on her again!!
=(
gosh....
how terrible is tat... ( cuz im wit her when she get rob on her birthday)
u muz be extra extra careful and alert my honey bi.....

I had my tarot too...
overall is doing quite great.....but juz nid to be alert on lift
>.< no more night outing anymore T_T
so sad.....

Im not to say i will 100% believe in tat...
but at least i`ll remind myself to stay extra alert when im alone...
as i nid to move to a new place when i go back to malacca.....
Will take it as a reference.....
tats all.....
I trust more to Law of attraction....
so i tell myself....
I BELIEVE IN YOU AND ME
^@^
cuz i believe i would like to spend the rest of my life for u.....

H.O.P.E

I drive to my dear today cuz he going for futsal at 930pm...

Bring him Sakae sushi and his favorite peppermint milk tea....
I knw he`ll be very happy when he c the milk tea....lol....
Hope he like it ^^

It`s not going to meet my dear up tml....cuz he`s having his sport tml night too....
Start to miss him very very much once i left his house.....
I promise to be a gd girl for u....
So u muz keep ur promise to me too ok?
Cuz u mean so much for me.....

~* promise me...i`ll be the last for u *~

Jon Mclaughlin - Beautiful Disaster

Repeating~~
it`s really touch me up.....
though is not a new song anymore......
but all i nid is something nice =D

23/05/2010

It`s been a hard few days for me......
the most serious gastric ever b4....
T_T
actually i had a nice day wit my cousin yesterday....
we had a glass of liquor at night =D
( i knw tat`s totally a terrible things for my stomach =x )
and while we nearly to my cousin house... our car broke down
zzzz.....
i can feel 乐极生悲 tis situation frm the deep of my heart...
gosh...
really spoiled our mood.....
anyway..it was still a little bit of gd luck on us.....
we able to walk back to her house..
thx god....

Today is totally a super duper tired day for me
slp less den 4 hours.....
cuz my handsome ryan sin woke me up early in the morning
=.=.....
he`s more efficient den alarm...
den i woke up early in the morning and play wit him.....
luckily today he didn`t ask me to sing wit him... T_T
"no more monkey jumping on the bed"
cool.....
yeah...ryan sin sing tis so called monkey song
and move it move it....at least for 5 times each song....
lolx.....
im happy tat now aday he keep ask me to carry him up and down...
he`s damn heavy honestly T_T

I reach home at 2pm....and i take my lunch and some rest be4 i have my bath....
my eyes are totally freaking tired cuz im wit my contact lenses for more den 24 hours...
im going to pay my dear a visit be4 he go out to his fren`s house tonight....

I knw tat my man is juz fool me around.....
he say if im getting fat...he wil pit me 1 day....
normally i wil pretend im angry when he said tis...
but today i suddenly feel so sad bout tis.....
i feel my heart break.....
well.....
im just too worry bout this wil happen 1 day....
of cuz...not worried bout when im getting fat tis issue=.=
is worry bout my man wil leave me....one day....
no matter wat reason....
but wat i scared the most is.....he`ll fall for another.....
ther`s no doubt tat he`s the 1 im searching for...
cuz he`s the perfect 1 for me.....

sry dear....
promise u.......
i try not to worry so much again....k?

Love u deeper and deeper everyday.....

A Date

Im happy today....
Having a great day wit my man today ^^
weee~~~~
we went for movie at sunway carnival mall...
my man bought couple seat somemore ^^
how sweet my man ^^

oh ya..... my man get his new car today....
a white ....err....white.......
=.=....
white car la....
lolx......
white toyota car...hahaha......i cant even categorize proton`s car....WAHAHAHAH....
=P
but the car remote nearly drive my man crazy....lolx.....
he blamed on me when the remote doesn`t work =.=
ok...my fault...my fault X_X
my pity man..... it`s gonna be a burden for him start from next month...
new car mean he nid to gong che for every month...
1.5k @_@
im going to find out a way to reduce his burden T_T
but it`s lucky tat im going back to study soon....
at least tat baga no nid to ci me so much ady =P he wil be happy when i go bak to melaka i guess... *wondering*

I love the way my dear hug me softly today ^^
and he told me he miss me so much sweetly........
I Love my man so so so much ^^
muackss....
nitez

In L.O.V.E

It`s few edited pic frm me.....
left few more to edit... hopefully able to take more pic wit my man....^^
will upload to my fb soon =D
weee~~~~

im hyper today...my man told me so juz now when we on call......
he said...im so excited when im recover frm sickness....lolx...
biiiiiii~~
he get it wrong....
im so excited today bcuz i miss my dear man so much so much today T_T
it`s been 2 days i haven see him...
how am i going to live when i going back to melaka T_T
sobsob....
dating dating tml =D

B.R.E.A.K.

Finally...... i had a talk wit my man...
he noticed im moody tonight...
i admit tat im bit out of my mind when i accidentally found out somethings yesterday....
did tried to hide my emotion on the day when i saw the statement....
im always gd in hiding myself... i knew it....
but i failed to do so anymore......
mayb due to my sickness.....it turns my mood off seriously...
so i just told my man why im mood....
yet.... i knw wat replies i wil get frm him....
always the same prob....the same answer.....the same situation....
i knw u wont change for me.... and u admit tat too.....
u said every guy are the same....so u wont tel me the lie juz to make me happy....
i should be appreciate...at least.....u din lie to me...right?
im sorry....im juz expect too much frm u......
i always though u r the special 1 for me....fact....u r also juz a normal guy.....
i shouldn`t ask more frm u..... u have ur own life....which i couldn`t enter in....
sad wit tat.....truly sad wit tat..... but i stil nid to accept it.....
i pray hardly for a stable relationship...
but it looks hard when only im the 1 who put afford on it....

hey celest..... be more realistic.....
tis only wat i can tel myself now....
CHEER~~~

no worries..... u still the man i love the most....no matter....wat happened.....

Starbucks night

Went out wit my couin bro last night....
3 cousins all ruin out of mood.....terribly.....
specially my cousin bro......
he was like totally out of control......
we went to auto city starbucks to have our private talk.....
absolutely, we had a great gan xing talk over there......
but is not a great night for me.....
after i took tis stupid hot chocolate at starbucks.... i vomited for twice in the midnight=.=
oh stomach oh stomach...
can u treat me nicely?
i wil treat u nicely dun worry.... T_T

S.E.N.S - Like a Wind

S.E.N.S. - Like A Wind

Actually not in mood today....
Will blog bout my mood later on....
cuz im going to share a nice video 1st ^^
it helps to calm down my emotion.....
although the melody is sad....but at least....it peace me down....
It`s always my 1st choice...

I L.o.v.e Fragrance *GHOST*

Recently i found a special fragrance on web..
"Ghost"
=x
damn cool right?
Ghost fragrance....i dun think manage to get it in Malaysia
Where can i get it ToT
i were 1st attracted by it`s design
half moon shape+my PURPLE color
T_T
i wan i wan i wan IT
ps. the model damn SEXY+HOT.....anything to do wit ghost? *wondering*

Ghost-Deep Night

Ghost-Summer Moon (L.E)

Inna-Sorry

Im addicted to this song tonight....
special thx to my honey bi.....
thx for sharing such nice song wit me
^^

Inna-Sorry

Sorry …
I didn’t mean to make you cry
Lonely, I feel so lonely
But I need to say goodbye

So many times I tried, I tried to tell you why
Why I didn’t love you when I choose to lie
Somebody else is there
Is watching you, watching you
Running from your love, your love

If I have to live my life without you
I will tell you the truth
`Cause you maybe try to leave your life behind you
And somebody else will come around you one day
You will go on but she will beg you to stay
Do you believe in me?
Please do!

Bye now …
I want to find my happiness
Somehow I want to tell you
That I tried to do my best

So many times I tried, I tried to tell you why
Why I didn’t love you when I choose to lie
Somebody else is there
Is watching you, watching you
Running from your love, your love

If I have to live my life without you
I will tell you the truth
`Cause you maybe try to leave your life behind you
And somebody else will come around you one day
You will go on but she will beg you to stay
Do you believe ïn me?
Please do!

My Love

It`s Saturyday~~~
and i spend my evening and night wit my dear ^^
Weee~~
i read the letter i wrote a few weeks ago for my dear....
cuz my dear couldn`t read chinese....
lolx....
i have to be honest tat....
my tears nearly drop out terribly several times....
luckily....i did manage my emotion well in front of my dear.....
ToT
I would like to say tat im willing to spend all my life time to love u...
just mention out in my blog...not face to face to my man....
ha...cuz he not really like it X_X
wat to do?
miss him badly now..... ToT

Headache

Im busying design my blog recently....
Found many interest blogs out there.....
It`s plenty of super nice+cute backgrounds.....
Im headache now...ToT
Which should i pick?

H.e.a.d.a.c.h.e.

Photo Design

It`s my 1st trial using Picnik to edit my photo
Will improve myself for the better picture
^^

Im so sorry

im addicted to design my blog and picnik on these 2 days...
lolz....
i think im just too bored....
but it`s quite fun.....
and finally i have success on changing my blog`s font style..
weeee~~~
trying on "buttons" the next =D
will try my best to improve my blog.....
and my bf asked me....no ppl view ur blog....wat for design til so nice?
lolx....
i syiok sendiri can or not ? =P
yerp...i knw my man wont view my blog....though he can find my blog in his pc....
actually 80% of my posts are about my man.....
somethings....i duno how to tel my man face to face.....
my hidden feeling to my man....
overall is all about my man and i......
is the only way i express my true feeling.....in here......

it`s 2:51am.....
and i feel so sorry to my man....
im sry im sry im sry.....
i`ve make a really stupid big mistake......
='(
y could i be so uncaring....
y i totally forget tat u r going to work tml..and stil i bought a late night movie ticket!
i knw im not a gd gf for u....
IM SORRY...

Happy 3 Months Anniversary

Im glad tat it`s our monthly anniversary again...
although cant be wit u on the exact day....but i stil enjoy on our day....
yerp....i go out shopping for the whole day wit my jules......
special thx to jules for accompany me for the whole day...
i spend most of my expenses on the card materials....
jules suggest me to buy a card from shop...easy+cheap...
lol...
the materials are quite costly... but i prefer handmade card...
only few can get my handmade card ^^
of cuz my dear is one of them =D
as i promise myself...i will gv him my handmade card every our monthly anniversary...
so....
tis the 3rd card for him....
Happy 3 months Anniversary my hubby...
I { Heart } You

如果

如果某天我笑了
那是因为你

如果某天我哭了
那是因为你

如果某天我生气了
那是因为你

而你永远不知道
你在我心目中是多么重要

Some pictures of mi

pics were took in Rasa Sayang beach hotel Penang
it`s a super grand hotel

cheer me

=[
i think im out of control now
even shopping also cant fix my emotion today
wats wrong wit me...

how can i stop my tears from keep dropping down
cheer me up...

sleepless miii

Im super duper sleepy+boring now.....
not really slp well tis whole week in penang....
argggg....
>.<
it`s totally killing me....ToT

Im missing some1 badly......
still 5more days to go to meet him up
gosh.....
im so sad =(
time passes so fast...and im going back to melaka again soon.....
yeap...
very soon.....
moreover....
11/5 fall on next tuesday....
and he`s not available for me on tat day....
how sad......
is hard for us to being together on 11of every month...
and im going to miss the chance again tis month....

some1 said he wil tham me after he back frm genting.....
let`s c whether he wil keep his promise or not...
but i think he`ll totally forget bout tis after he back frm genting....
so it`s better dun think bout it too much....
actually.... all i want is juz to be wit u on tat day.....
tats all......

He`s my piggy man

Today i bcum a delivery girl for my dear....
Subway subway subway.....
is abit expensive but it`s healthy fast food.... lolx

guess wat my dear doing when im arrived at his house?
he`s sleepinggggggggggggggggggggggggg.............
piggy piggy...
and he continue his sweet dream after he let me get in his house....
=.=

he just sleep like a baby...lol
i am juz looking at him and i feel so sweet....
i feel so happy cuz im able to meet he up today.....
although he`s sleeping ther...but im totally ok with tat.......
as long as....
im able to be with my man..... tats more den enuf.....
^^

Zdzislaw Beksinki

Tis is some drawing of Zdzislaw Beksinki
The beauty of ART
and it`s cool